Monday, March 6th, 2017
City Spelunker: Keeping My New Years Resolution
So, just like everyone else, I set some new years resolutions. A few were pretty generic, like working out more. Which, considering it’s March and I’m still going to the gym semi-regularly–I’m feeling pretty good about. ‘Cause let’s be real, how many resolutions make it to March? Even if that resolution is dragging along like some sort of injured animal, it’s still going.
I also set up some blog specific resolutions, one of which was to do more posts on location. I wanted to move my blog outside of my apartment and give my posts more context. I was super nervous about this, since I take most of my own photos. I thought, “What if people see me? What are they going to say? What if someone laughs at me?”
I’d been talking about this spot for months, and every time I imagined doing a post on location, this was what popped into my head. So I couldn’t let that fear stop me from what was obviously so important to me! I enlisted the help of my boyfriend so that I wouldn’t feel so alone and nervous. I still felt goofy and scared about it, all the way up to when we arrived. But I took a deep breath and just went ahead as usual.
And you know what? No one laughed at me. No one stopped to ask me what I was doing while rolling their eyes. We got a couple looks, but most of them seemed out of mindless curiosity. I realized that I was building up all this fear in me about what others would think when the reality is, no one really cares! We’re all our own harshest critic. The only real criticism I needed to push through was my own.
I was happy to check off one of my goals for this year, and I’m going to continue with it! I’d describe myself as a nervous person, but I’m slowly getting better at pushing through the nerves to accomplish my dreams, and it pays off! How are your new years resolutions goin—wait, you don’t have to answer that if you don’t want to. What goals are you working towards? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below!
Lots of love,